Alright, so guess what? Those of you who don't know me, I kind of maybe sorta might not be so great at following through on things... **cough,cough,BLOGS,cough**. I know ... SHOCKER!!! But it's okay, we all have our faults and the first step to changing something is recognizing the fault and then accepting and embracing the need for change.
I know, I can just picture you sitting there thinking "um... okay Lisa, where is all THIS craziness coming from?!" Well frankly, I'm sick and tired of how I treat myself... no, no.. that's not it... I am sick and tired of how I am CHOSING to treat myself. Life is full of choices, so why do I tend to put myself on the back burner? There are definitely things that make sense to back burner because they're just plain selfish... take for instance the beautiful steel blue '69 Stingray I would die to own! ;-) That'd be great but let's face it, groceries, mortgage payments, soccer fees, school supplies, clothes... all those silly things that tend to pop up on a regular basis are far more important :-). So the question is where do I draw the line of my own importance? Is it wrong to say "HEY!!! I am IMPORTANT too! I MATTER!!"?? The answer is HECK NO! As a matter of fact, it's WRONG to not say those things! Parents... well sheesh, anyone really... tend to get wrapped up in making sure their kids are cared for and life continues to move forward that we almost always forget to remember that we are a human being too with feelings and needs and we deserve to focus on us from time to time. And that's exactly what I'm going to do.
Starting this week, I am incredibly excited and nervous and scared all wrapped up in one great big emotion, about beginning my personal training sessions to better myself physically - and the perks with bettering myself physically include a better emotional and mental me (don't worry!!! I'll make sure to not get too mentally normal!!) as well as that incredible feeling of "I did this! I MATTER and I am IMPORTANT ENOUGH to take care of me!" What am I scared of? The motivation and accountability parts. I know I lack in these departments for myself - so I made the decision to put some time (and a little money) into me and invest in personal training sessions at work. The accountability comes with my trainer. Now given that the facilities are owned by my company and are onsite, it's not like I can duck this guy - he knows where my desk is?! :-S So, there is someone else who will know if I skip or skimp on this adventure. Secondly, the motivation (and a little extra accountability) is I've decided it's smarter to walk with path with a good friend. She and I are going to take do the training sessions together and we are going to make sure we both show up and provide that support and motivation that great friends can provide (and perhaps a healthy dose of competition!)
So that's it... now I've said it out loud and I am going to do it! There is a whole internet world (or the few that read these posts anyway) who know I am doing this and I have committed to myself that there is no dropping out, no quitting, no saying it's too hard or I don't have time. No way... because I MATTER and this is important for me and only I can do this for me!
Here we go, the first steps on another who-knows-whats-to-come adventure! Wish me luck! I'll keep you posted.... really! :-)
YAY!
Okay, that's the easy part. We can ALL say "here are some of my faults that I am going to change!" but what happens when it's time to follow through? This girl, right here, sitting at the keyboard will tell you it's the follow through that's not only the hardest part, but in many cases the most scary and/or overwhelming part! The best way to kick yourself in the rear, and not look like a dummy doing it... I mean c'mon... have you ever kicked your own rear? There really is no graceful way to do it... but, the best way to kick yourself in the rear and get moving forward is to put in place some things that won't allow you to give up. I'm talking some of those key buzz words we all tend to shy away from at times.. MOVTIVATION and ACCOUNTABILITY! My experience says that if I task myself with motivating myself... well, I tend to do great the first few days, but then my motivation looks more like "...eh... tomorrow, I'll do it tomorrow for sure!" The pitfall here is there is ALWAYS a tomorrow on the horizon. ;-) Accountability?! Don't even get me started here friend! I'm FAR better at motivating myself than I am at holding myself accountable to things I need to do for just me. I mean... it's not like anyone else is going to know if I give up or quit or skip a day or two or three right?! I know, I can just picture you sitting there thinking "um... okay Lisa, where is all THIS craziness coming from?!" Well frankly, I'm sick and tired of how I treat myself... no, no.. that's not it... I am sick and tired of how I am CHOSING to treat myself. Life is full of choices, so why do I tend to put myself on the back burner? There are definitely things that make sense to back burner because they're just plain selfish... take for instance the beautiful steel blue '69 Stingray I would die to own! ;-) That'd be great but let's face it, groceries, mortgage payments, soccer fees, school supplies, clothes... all those silly things that tend to pop up on a regular basis are far more important :-). So the question is where do I draw the line of my own importance? Is it wrong to say "HEY!!! I am IMPORTANT too! I MATTER!!"?? The answer is HECK NO! As a matter of fact, it's WRONG to not say those things! Parents... well sheesh, anyone really... tend to get wrapped up in making sure their kids are cared for and life continues to move forward that we almost always forget to remember that we are a human being too with feelings and needs and we deserve to focus on us from time to time. And that's exactly what I'm going to do.
Starting this week, I am incredibly excited and nervous and scared all wrapped up in one great big emotion, about beginning my personal training sessions to better myself physically - and the perks with bettering myself physically include a better emotional and mental me (don't worry!!! I'll make sure to not get too mentally normal!!) as well as that incredible feeling of "I did this! I MATTER and I am IMPORTANT ENOUGH to take care of me!" What am I scared of? The motivation and accountability parts. I know I lack in these departments for myself - so I made the decision to put some time (and a little money) into me and invest in personal training sessions at work. The accountability comes with my trainer. Now given that the facilities are owned by my company and are onsite, it's not like I can duck this guy - he knows where my desk is?! :-S So, there is someone else who will know if I skip or skimp on this adventure. Secondly, the motivation (and a little extra accountability) is I've decided it's smarter to walk with path with a good friend. She and I are going to take do the training sessions together and we are going to make sure we both show up and provide that support and motivation that great friends can provide (and perhaps a healthy dose of competition!)
So that's it... now I've said it out loud and I am going to do it! There is a whole internet world (or the few that read these posts anyway) who know I am doing this and I have committed to myself that there is no dropping out, no quitting, no saying it's too hard or I don't have time. No way... because I MATTER and this is important for me and only I can do this for me!
Here we go, the first steps on another who-knows-whats-to-come adventure! Wish me luck! I'll keep you posted.... really! :-)
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