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There are so many mixed emotions that come with Fathers Day in my home.  Mainly, it is a day of celebration, and one my children look forward to!  The gifts and crafts and cards that are made at school and at church are adjusted slightly, to be for their Papa or their Uncle, who they will tell you are "kinda just like a dad to them!"  Actually, this year, I got a doctored up fathers day card!  The word "dad" was crossed out my my daughter and replaced with the word "Mom".  It was very sweet and I loved it!  All in all, fathers day is a good day for my kids - surprisingly it is one without many questions (for now I'm sure) as to who their "dad" is and where he may be.  The mixed emotions - those are mine.  There is a song, one that tends to play at the exact moment I need to hear it - sometimes it plays on the radio, and sometimes it plays in my heart, either way, it's lyrics are one's I cannot, and do not want, to forget.  T...

Wow... it's been awhile since I've been on here.  A friend pointed out to me, as I was spilling my guts and falling apart, that it had been awhile since I'd blogged... and that I'd mentioned it was a really great stress release for me.  It truly is, getting to write and work my way though issues, even if it's in a public forum sometimes.  I would hope, by writing about my trials and life happenings and how I came through them - both good and bad - that perhaps it could help others going through similar situations.  It's been a long couple of months, as I already said, and many things have been going on.  I am choosing to write, finally, tonight simply because God knocked me over the head with a giant bat of reality and perspective!  The reality being that yes, things have not been going to best lately, but I have been focusing on the negative far more than I would ever typically do.  The perspective side being, well... simply that; perspect...